I started this blog for reasons. One of them is to have an outlet for my inner thoughts and random rants. Well, I was pretty much broken and wasted by the time I published my very first post. At first, I post personal stuff but some comments made me realized that someone out there can relate to what I feel every time I publish something. I have to admit it, it’ felt nice knowing that I have some followers who share the same fate.
What you’ll PROBABLY hate about me;
1. I SPEAK THE TRUTH. I relate it to me being goody frank about almost everything but my friends would often relate it to me being the harsh and the mean girl. Sorry, but though I grew up in an environment well provided with sweets, I do not sugarcoat things. If you ask me for an advise of having a cheating boyfriend, don’t expect me to baby you and tell you it’ll pass or tomorrow’s gonna be another day for your relationship with him. I’ll tell you straight in your face to leave the douche bag and start moving on because girl, clearly, he doesn’t love you enough that’s why he cheated and I hope you get that. I listen to my friend’s rants and problems but I do not tolerate martyrdom or idiocy over something so simple by complicating it more. I am usually not the friend to-go-to when you’re heartbroken, financially challenged or on the verge of committing suicide because I might consider convincing you to do the act right away by providing you the right instruments that will immediately cut your pulse and stop your heartbeat.
2. I STRICTLY OBSERVE TIME. There was never a time in my life where I was late be it at school, meet ups or work. Not even a single time that I remember. Maybe I got this trait from my Mom, who’s a teacher by the way, to give importance to the time and every wasted time equates to all opportunities you have missed in your life. I get annoyed easily when a friend or anyone I was about to meet is late for about 1 minute much more to some soulless individual who’s an hour late for a meeting. My brows arched every time I have this late friend or office colleague who is always late. I have this tendency to walk out during meet ups even if you’re my brat friend or my sister and a friend. Hahaha! So, if you’re someone not of highly importance and we’ve decided to meet up and I’m not yet at our meeting place at the right time, I gone home already because you are LATE!!! You know they say, patience is a virtue, but hey, TIME IS GOLD. Thank you for this training Mom, I love you.
3. I AM SENTIMENTAL & AN OLD SOUL. I like classic beauty. I am still keeping all the old things I own like my old mobile phones, old lanyards, old shirts, even some of my old bags and shoes, old gadgets as long as they still serve their purpose. My drawers looked like a warehouse because of those. I am having the difficulty of letting go of those items I once love. I tend to keep things given to me and I remember those people who gave them to me. I appreciate everything even to the single Kisses chocolate. When it comes to fashion, I seldom go with the trend because first, I am not into it and second, I don’t think I have a bit of being a fashionista in me. I wear what I am comfortable with. It’s comfort over fashion for me. I also believe that classic beauty is timeless like Audrey Hepburn. Old things kept me reminded how simple things were before and how simplicity stands beautiful.
4. I AM ONE HELL OF A FEISTY LADY. Well, I want to give a heads up to everyone that there’s a difference between a feisty lady and a trashy feisty lady. I am not afraid to argue if I know I am right and sometimes even when I am wrong (just to annoy you) if you’re not getting to the point. I blame Mom for this. I am the youngest of the 6 children and because of my big age gap with my siblings I was the one who suffered my Mom’s aggressive and even manipulative side while I was in my younger years but I’m okay now and I am over that phase now. I stand by the fact that you can’t play nice when you’re being rubbed to dirt by someone, right? It’s something I carry everywhere I go and keep it at the bottom of my being both unless I want to unleash it. I always carry a good heart with me, but don’t you just dare. I’d rather confront everyone with hurt than keep them hidden in everyone’s closet.
5. I BURN BRIDGES. They say friends are important and you are not suppose to burn the bridge that connects you but I say I have a whole lot of gasoline to buy and just a click of lighter borrowed from a smoker friend that will send you to the deepest corner of hell! Once a friend falls on the trap of betrayal that’s the time I let them see me burn the bridge that connects us. I am a busy person and I don’t have much time segregating good friends from rotten ones plus my heart doesn’t have a cell for traitors. I know declaring friendship to be over is a big move to make because it’ll ruin lives and relationship but would you rather keep a traitor friend than to have a space for another that’ll soon be your trusted friend. I have trust issues. The reason why I have very few good friends, I have less than 10. There are those I am with almost everyday, those that I often talk online and one that I was not able to see for 8 years now! The value of friendship is in the heart. No distance or time can hinder it. Only real friends can relate to this. If you’re my friend, you’re my friend until the end. If you dare to betray me or even attempted to, I will forever remember it and not a single time in your life will I let you forget about it.
What I shared was something personal. I hope we should all learn to be true to ourselves and value our self-worth. Get to know yourself first before you start getting to know anyone else’s. Offer yourself all the love you can give. It’s your choice and responsibility to make yourself happy.
The Lady With No Luck 